If one were to ask me how I felt about moving to another country this time three months back, I would say that I am not very comfortable with the uncertainty and not know what lies before me in foreign grounds.
The first few weeks, even months, were quite tough for me as I was trying to adapt to this new lifestyle of mine. Having been a workaholic for so long, it feels quite unpleasant to be slowing down, stepping back and having so much time in my hands. I feel almost insecure about it. So I spent the last two weeks or so contemplating over my current position; maybe this was what I needed after all.
Most people are so caught up with society's expectations on the 'perfect life' that we tend to conform so easily into situations that are of little interest to us. I am guilty of doing so. Then I asked myself, why should I give in to what society thinks is right (or wrong)? One thing I love about Melbourne is the alternative side of life. There are groups of people who live their life without caring what others think of them, as long as they are not causing harm or be a nuisance to others. Let's talk about the day job for starters.
Financial security is vital, no doubt about that. However, I believe one can live in a minimalist manner, without the needs of a capitalist world. I am trying my best to apply that in my live at the moment, shying away from the branded, hip/trendy. Practicality is what I seek, most of the time.
Do I want to get a full-time job?
Yes, and No.
In some ways, I am starting to accept and enjoy the way I live right now. I have finally stepped out of that bubble of mine and look at things in a different perspective. I learn to view things and situations in a different manner, show more gratitude, be kinder, be more conscious about my surroundings and lend a hand to people in-need (even though they think they do not need it).
Every day I am surrounded by individuals who keep contributing 'good seeds' into my life, to nurture my soul, like my boyfriend and his family for example. They are genuinely nice and caring people, I wish the world has more individuals like them.
This chapter of my life is dedicated to soul-searching, to discover areas about myself that I seem to have forgotten or never knew I had within me.
My stress level has reduced to almost zero, and I am seeing great changes in myself, holistically.
To many, this post might appear pointless. Though I hope to some of you reading this, you can improve your life when you change the way you think. Remove yourself from your crazy lifestyle for a moment and ponder over life in general. Acknowledge the little things that are bugging you, and discover ways to curb them.
Did I mention that I turned into a green finger lately? Chris' mum taught me how to plant little seedlings. I went to Bunnings the other day and bought some potting mix and dynamic lifters (they are like multivitamins for the soil). The plants out on our balcony has grown so well, I am really proud of them. Can't wait for Summer to come.
Those two photos were taken in early November. Now, see how much they have grown ...
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